Asking...seeking...knocking...when nothing seemed to stir...maybe He did speak...and i was too deaf to hear...too stubborn in my own desires to listen...but i'm grateful when i read Psalm 105 last two nights.
16 When he summoned a famine on the land
and broke all supply[a] of bread,
17 he had sent a man ahead of them,
Joseph, who was sold as a slave.
18 His feet were hurt with fetters;
his neck was put in a collar of iron;
19 until what he had said came to pass,
the word of the LORD tested him.
i felt it was the LORD speaking to me through this excerpt on Joseph's destiny in God's plan. God did not plan for Joseph to go to Egypt smoothly to fulfill his plan to deliver Israel from famine...God could have just bring Joseph in by a way that's more rational and usual...no, but Joseph was sold as a slave there. He entered in by the most humilated and humble manner. Worse, he was thrown into the jail...verses 18 spoke to me...that how "[Jospeh's] feet were hurt with fetters; his neck was put in a collar of iron until what [God] had said came to pass"...it made me think that for me to remain and stay where i am in school indeed seemed like a 'prison' to me...one that i want to break free away from very badly...but perhaps like Joseph, i'm to stay there for a reason...or for a season cos the timing's not ripe yet. But the comforting thing is that His word 'came to pass'...God's destiny for Joseph came to pass because Jospeh was faithful to obey and wait for God's timing and plan to uncover itself...
The words, "the word of the LORD tested him" made me pause to think...God tested Joseph's faith and obedience...if he would remembered what God said to him in his youth and if God would bring it to pass even in dire circumstances 'now & then' that he was in. I'm thinking to myself if THIS is my testing...right now, to stay in school even though i'm searching and waiting for God show me the way out is my testing...just as Joseph waits for God to bring him out of prison despite being still in it...
I don't know if i can...but i want to pass the testing...i believe that God has a destiny for me that i don't know yet and how it'll come to pass yet. But if i walk out of this 'prison', i may miss out on fulfilling God's plan & purposes for me.
