2011...

Verdict is out.

She will not support 2010.

We striked an agreement.

I'll stay for 2010.

She'll let me go in 2011.

Perhaps it's good timing too. I trust that God is in control of this timing. I have peace with the decision and the agreement. I don't have to leave in a rush and feel guilty about it. And I get to have the support to go even though it's later. Still a win-win situation.

By 2011, the mission focus in ETC will materialise too... :)

Peace despite what i see...

The replies from the enquiries from personnel div. has not been favourable...but somehow there was peace in my heart. I don't know why...though my emotions was abit thrown off after the call...but as i look to God, there was peace somehow...and i thank God for it. Perhaps i need to learn to trust beyond what i see and maybe this is a testimony of faith along this journey...

Will be going for ETC intro briefing tomo...i wonder what will it bring?...

The lesson in applying leave...

Called up the personnel division and inquired...i confessed, i have not been honest...i withheld the part that it's seminary studies...and i'm convicted. Indeed, God did not let my conscience rest...therefore i confessed and repented. I must do this with integrity. That's the number one thing. If i don't, what the point of getting the leave and studying? If i dont speak the truth and glorify God in this, then all the rest that follow wont start right either. I don't want to go that way.

Then i realised why i have withheld the 'truth' - i have not fully trusted God to open the way. I'm still dependent on man's ways - on my own way to 'attain' the approval. I realised that i need to trust God even though man's ways does not seem viable. And in my heart, i asked God to show me how and to make a way even i can see no way. And PRAISE THE LORD!!! He immediately responded to me through Bro. Brian's call. There's another way! Indeed God opens doors we cannot see...and this is a testimony of His marvelous goodness and faithfulness! I call..He hears me...HE HEARS ME...He hears me...He affirms..and strengths my faith in Him.