a song to remember that i'm His Beloved and His Bride...and He sings over me.

You're My Beloved
C
You're My Bride
G C
To sing over you is My delight
Am D G
Come away with Me My love

G
Under My mercy
C
Come and wait
G C
Till we are standing face to face
Am D
I see no stain on you
G
My child

D C G
You're Beautiful to Me
D C D
So Beautiful to Me

G C
I sing over you My song of peace
G C
Cast all your cares down at My feet
Am D G
Come and find your rest in Me

Am C
I'll breathe My life inside of you
Em D
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
Am C Am C
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
Am C
I'll take you to My quiet waters
Em D
I'll restore your soul
Am C Am D
Come rest in Me and be made whole

G
You're My beloved
C
You're My Bride
G C
To sing over you is my delight
Am D G
Come away with me my love

Still trying...

i'm still trying...trying to numb my desires...stopping myself from glancing all over for dhim...and when i spot him...and knowing that dhe saw me...i quickly glanced away...then when i walked away, trying to control myself...i start to glance all over again...what on earth am i doing?

why am i doing such a foolish thing? knowing it's not possible...why all these foolish feelings?

focus focus focus! focus on Him - the LORD who is the author and finisher of my faith.

I can't help but feel that the LORD is testing me...how much determination i have to shrug dhim off my mind and surrender my heart time after time, week after week in obedience to Him...it's been 3 weeks that i somehow just sees him...the congreg. isn't big, but it isn't that small that i would see the same person for 3 consecutive weeks...yet i did...before the rev. sharing, along the void deck, at the sanct. door today...somehow his outfit from the back just caught my attention and made me glance a second time and realised it was him even when i fail to see his face...and upon seeing him, a sense of heartache just welled up within me for him...why? i dun know why...

Am i looking out for dhim? No...i've told my heart each Sunday to not hope...to not yearn to see dhim...but my heart is yet to be tested...and each time he appears all of a sudden before me...my heart is just shaken and caught up with him...i know God is gracious to let me retake my 'testings'...

In Surrender and Obedience...

Stumbled upon this song as i struggled with tough work relations...and brought me to realise that God is LORD. That He is the loving God - as much as He loves me, He loves the colleague that i struggled working with...And realised that God desired for me to show that same love even if i struggled to...it's not within my power. But with the power of His love. I need to realised the finity of my own and surrender to obey Him - to forgive...love despite the wrongful acts of others.

At the same time, it made me realised and reminded that i'm not my own master...i need to let God be my Master.

The Hymnal version that soothes me...

Lord, i'm trying...You know i'm trying to surrender and to forget...