I think it was pretty obvious...i'm looking out for someone...i was really looking around but i didn't find the one i was looking for...back to the same lesson last Sunday...had to relearn that again...to refocus on God and let God do the leading...and stop my eyes from the wondering...

Seeing his devotion as i finally braved myself to read his blog earlier made realise i should just not let anything start at all...when i sensed his devotion, it's so beautiful that i dun want to spoil it. I would wish that he would remain as godly and devoted as he seemed to be - just like Hosea. I can't deny that there is a unspoken fear that i will miss out on him if he ever wavers...but if God doesn't lead me to him...why would i miss out on anything at all?

Am i 'falling back on him' because of my insecurity? Realised that i tend to do so...it shouldn't be so at all...Christ is my security.